Letting her go....

"I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! " Jeanne's eyes were wide and filled with tears. She was afraid of what he would say to her.
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Jeanne was a nerdy girl with thick glasses. She was a junior in her middle school. She was in love with the hottest guy in the entire school.

And now, she told him that she loved him.

"Haha! Shut up. Nobody would like you! Who do you think I am?"

Jeanne had feared he would say something like that. She was devastated. She started running. She didn't want to face him ever again. All these thoughts and feelings ran throughout her head. Until, she bumped into something.

"Hey, whats up?"

She had bumped into James.

"WHAT?! I'll GO TELL HIM! WHERE DOES HE GET THAT NERVE! SOMETIMES, I DON'T KNOW WHY I'M HIS BEST FRIEND! THAT'S IT! i'M GOING TO GO BEAT HIM UP!"

"NO! James! Don't do it! It's not his fault. I was the foolish one to think we can ever date."
"But Jeanne!"
" No, it's OK! I should go."
" JEANNE... James grabbed her by the wrist as she was getting up. Don't go."

Jeanne stared into his eyes and felt so warm and fuzzy; a feeling she didn't feel for a long time. But, she looked away. She saw in such a long time, it felt awkward to feel it again. And then she gently took her wrist out of James' grasp and slowly walked away from him with tears in her eyes.

"Dammit, James! You really did it this time! Jeanne just left you! And why are you trying to hit on her?"

James walked back home with his hands stuffed in his pocket. Thoughts of Jeanne ran throughout his head. He didn't want Jeanne to be hurt by a jackass. He wanted to show her that he loved her. He wanted to show her he cared. But Jeanne just seemed to ignore him. And then, something ran into him. He crashed on the ground and saw Jeanne was on top of him. She seemed to not know whom she crashed into. James smiled.

"Oh, I'm so sorry. I'm very, very sorry. I should have been more careful.. I'm sorry. Can I repay you somehow?"
"Jeanne", James said, lifting her chin and brushing her bangs. Jeanne looked through his soft eyes and almost melted.
"James..." said Jeanne. Suddenly, she started crying. James was shocked.
" J-Jeanne? What's wrong?"
"I' m s-s-such a f-fool! H-How c-c-can I th-think t-that G-Gyung H-Hoon c-can love me?"
"Jeanne.. I would not call that foolish.. I actually admire you going up to him and confessing. However, crying about him is indeed foolish. Jeanne, Don't cry about that jerk. Here, let's go to my house. We're right in front of it!" Jeanne nodded.

James led her to the bathroom.

"Take off your glasses. We need to wipe those tears off." He said with a smile. Jeanne took them off without a word. James turned on the water and wet a washcloth. Then, he gently wiped her tears off her face.
" James.. Do you love me?" James was startled by this comment.
" Why do you ask me that?"
" Because.. it seems like it. Do you?"
" Haha! Jeanne, you are my friend."
" Oh.. OK. I think I'm not so teary now. Thanks, James."
" No Problem. Do you want something to drink?"
" Um... OK." She followed James out the door.
He handed her a glass of orange juice and they sat down outside on a bench.
" Are you going to be all right?"
" Yeah.. Thanks. But I don't think I'll be able to face him again."
" When he calls you something bad, just yell my name. OK?"
" OK." she said with a small laugh.
" But what are you going to do when I call you?"
" I'm going to beat him up!"
" What if everyone starts hating you?"
" It doesn't matter. As long as the one girl I love is happy."
" Ooh, James! You like someone?"
" Yeah.. Guess. I'll never tell you until you get the right answer."
" Hmm... is it Amy? She's pretty! What about Lauren? She's nice and quiet. Or is it Becca? She's generous. Or maybe it's Courtney! She's not all that nice though..."

After a few tries, she gave up.

"Who is it? I'm dying of curiosity!"
" Let's see.. she has glasses.. she's in love with Eric, she's sitting right next to me! Jeanne let out a small gasp."
" M-Me?" James nodded. Jeanne almost passed out.
" James! I have declared you crazy." James started laughing.
" Why won't you believe me? I like you.. I want you to be my girlfriend."
" But you're the second hottest guy in school! What if everyone criticizes you for bad taste in girls?"
" I don't care¦ I told you. As long as the one girl I love is happy." he said, smiling.
" No, really, James. No games this time. All serious.. all right?"
" Yeah.. I know."
" Oh my god..." Jeanne said, covering her mouth with her hand.
"Jeanne, I just want to be the right guy for you." he said while putting his arm around her shoulder. She leaned against him and for the first time, she felt accepted by someone special.
"But, James! Why did you say I was just a friend before?"
"Umm! I didn't feel like it was time yet." Jeanne nodded. She knew how hard it was to say, "I love you." She knew how nervous you would feel. And she knew how hard it was to feel the reject.
"I understand, James. I'm just glad you told me. I'll think about it."
"Jeanne, do you still like Eric?"
"Yes!"
"What has he got, that I don't?"
"I just don't know! I mean! you two look the same! you guys wear things all similarly! but! I like Eric better."
"All right! I'll make him like you. He knows he's not going to win in a fight." Jeanne wrapped him in her arms.
"James! I'm all right. You don't have to do all that." And then he wrapped her in his arms.

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"Eric, can I see you for a moment?"
"What up, dude?"
"It's about Jeanne!"
"Oh no! don't tell me about that ugly! I just barf when I hear her name!"
"SHUT UP! DUDE, YOU JUST HAVE TO GIVE HER A CHANCE! WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU?"
"Hey! I have other girls who want me. The least thing I need now is another girl who is ugly and slow liking me."
"She's not ugly and slow! She's kind and beautiful in the inside when you get to know her!"
"Wait! do you!?"
"Yes! I do!"
"Haha! Then why don't you date her?"
"Because! she's in love with a jackass!"
"STILL? Haha! Man, she's hilarious! After I rejected her like that?"
"Hey! please! it would mean a lot to me! just say that you at least like her as a friend and apologize for what happened last time. Man, she came running all the way to my house and started crying! She was just! out of control, man! Just tell her that! please?"
"All right!"
"You're the best!"
"Hey, Jeanne! I'm sorry for what happened last time. I was sort of tired and grouchy. I wasn't in a good mood. I never wanted to say it that way. I like you as a friend. And I want to keep that relationship. All right?" Eric let out a hand for a shake. Jeanne nodded. She let out her hand and they had a friendship shake, which made James smile.

"See? Eric likes you! He just wants to keep the relationship just as friends! All cool with you?"
"Yes.." she said softly. James took her hand and walked away with her.

"You all right, now?"
"Yeah!" she nodded. "But he only wants us to be friends! because I'm a nerd!"
"Jeanne! Why don't you ever think about me? You know he's a jerk! Why do you mope around for that! So what, if he doesn't like you! Everyone is different, Jeanne. To my eyes, you are a beauty. You can't always think about him! There are other guys out there for you! Not just Eric and me! I really don't want to see you like this."

"James! Do you really love me?"
"I don't think I need to answer that!" They stared at each other for a long time.
"James!" She tried to push him away and he staggered a little.
"Jeanne! answer this for me! do you love me?"
"James, I never intended to be your girlfriend. I just want to be your friend."
"Oh, I see! you're treating me like how Eric treated you. You don't want to be my girlfriend because I'm way different than you. You don't want to be my girlfriend because I'm better looking than you and you're afraid that people will jeer you because of that. Well, you know what? I don't care about any of that!" And with that, he grabbed her and locked her lips into his. After a while, he moved away.

"Oh, you really do love me!" She hugged him.
"But, Jeanne! do you still have feelings for him?"
"Yes! I always have, and always will."
"Do you want to be pretty? Like those girls over there?" James pointed to a group of girls. They all had big hoop earrings and what Jeanne noticed was that they did not have any thick glasses like her. Jeanne nodded. She was pretty ashamed about it.
"It's all right, Jeanne. All girls want to be good looking. Even they were ugly once. Everyone is."
"Really?"
"Sure! I used to act like a girl once. I always thought about my appearance, my clothes, and my hair ; just like a girl."
"Haha! That's funny!"
"It's good to see you laugh. Now, Jeanne. I'll help you become pretty'. Then will you be happy?"
"I don't know. I've never been attractive in my life.." she said innocently.
"Well, it's time you are!"

"OK! we'll start off with your hair. It's nice and curly. I don't think it's right to put it up in a hairdo or anything. Something needs to go with it. And I have just the perfect thing."
"What is it?"
"Jeanne! we need to pierce your ears."
"WHAT?!"
"AAAAAAAHHH! OUCH!"
"Well, that wasn't so bad! right?"
"Yeah right," Jeanne said, rubbing her ears. "James, it's even painful to touch my ears!"
"Then just leave them alone before you get an infection!"
"All right! Geez!"
"Now, we need to focus on your clothes. You can't always have a blouse with a tight sweater squeezed over it, you know. It looks like our school has a dress code. You should have a tight shirt with a miniskirt. That would look good on you."

"OK! now that we have all the clothes and jewelry, all we need to fix are your glasses. We need contacts for your eyes."
"How are we going to do that?"
"I know someone who can get us contacts. I knew my eye doctor for a long time. He can help us with it."
"So you want to give her contacts for these glasses?"
"Yeah. Can you help us?" "Well! the lens are really thick! You must be studying really hard, student," he
looked at Jeanne. She smiled and nodded.
"So! will you take them?"
"Yeah, I guess. I really like the design. It can be a display. And whoever wants it, can get it. All right, let's get you some contacts."
"That was pretty easy, right, Jeanne?"
"But it's pretty weird not pushing up some glasses every 10 seconds."
"Haha. But your new blue eyes look marvelous."
"Wait a minuet! You got blue contacts? BLUE?!"
"Yeah. And the extra pair is just regular hazel... the same color as your eyes."
"I want the hazel ones. I don't want to be a Caucasian."
"No. Don't you want to be matching with Eric? Eric has blue contacts, too, you know!"
"Fine!" Jeanne pouted. But James knew inside she was happy. He knew he was going to have to let go of her.

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On Monday, James brought Jeanne to school. Everyone gathered around them and agreed that James and the new beautiful girl was a good couple. James put his arm around Jeanne and took her to Eric.

"What up, man? Who's the chick?" Eric asked.
"You'll never know."
"So tell me!"
"You want to tell him, girl?" James asked Jeanne.
"Hi! I'm Jeanne." James and Jeanne smiled when they heard him gasp.
"The! the nerdy! nerdy girl?"
"The same, Eric! the same."
"Can I talk to you, James?" Eric took James away from Jeanne. "Dude, what the hell is happening here? That's not Jeanne, right?"
"It is Jeanne! How can you live like that? How can you live with one spontaneous idea stuck in your head? Can't you ever think about Jeanne being beautiful and attractive?"
"Well! no."
"See? I knew this was a bad idea. But she loves you! Can't you believe that? And I love her! so I'm letting her go to the one jerk she loves. Peace, man," and with that, James walked away. "Good luck, Jeanne." He stuffed his hands into his pants pockets. He tried to stop the tears from streaming down his face. Jeanne! if you love him that much! I'll let you go. I hope that jackass won't hurt you.

"So! You're Jeanne! The one I rejected?"
"Umm! Yeah."
"Well! I've thought about it, but I think I want you to be my girlfriend."
"Your girlfriend?"
"Yeah." Jeanne couldn't believe her ears. Thank you, James. "So! do you accept?"
"Of course I do! It's always been my dream!"
"Gosh! you have pretty weird dreams! Hey, you look cold. Here." Eric took off his sweater and wrapped it over Jeanne. Jeanne was so happy she was crying. Eric wiped her tears and comforted her.

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After school, Jeanne called James to thank him.

"Hello?"
" James! Thank you so much! It went so well between Eric and me!"
"That's! that's great, Jeanne."
" I owe it all to you. Let's go out for lunch or something sometime. I'll pay." Jeanne sounded so happy.
"Jeanne, I don't think that'll be possible."
" Why not?"
"I'm leaving! to Korea."
" What about your parents? Why are you going? How are you going? I just don't believe this!"
"My parents were dead a long time ago, Jeanne. I have enough money to get on a plane to Korea."
" But! what about me? I thought you loved me!"
"Yes, I do. But you're in love with someone else and I don't want to burden you. I want you to be happy with the one you love and not be pressured by me. Tell Eric that I congratulate him and tell him good-bye please. Bye, Jeanne."

Click!

Jeanne couldn't believe it. She was able to date because of James. She was able to get attractive because of James. She was always comforted because of James! And he was leaving her out by herself in the big, hateful, hideous world. She felt suddenly so scared. She dialed James's number again, but he disconnected the phone. She finally knew who was important to her now.

She quickly dressed into the clothes James had bought for her and ran outside. She was running for dear life to James's house. When she got there, he was right there, in front of her.

Jeanne was so happy she cried out, "JAMES!" He turned to face her. "James, how can you leave me like this?" James looked at her with his soft eyes.

"I'm sorry, Jeanne. I have to leave. My cab's here. Bye, Jeanne." James gave her a peck on the cheek and disappeared into the taxi. She watched the taxi disappear into the curve and watched her James gone! forever. She started crying and crying as if her life was over. But it was! she was now alone in the world, with no one to support her.

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-15 years later-

James came back to America as a successful lawyer. He came back to America in search for the girl he had loved 15 years ago. Everyone in Korea had questioned him. And now that he was back, he was able to search as much as he wanted. But, little did he know there was a problem with that.

"Eric?" James had called Eric. They were in touch the whole time James was in Korea.
" Hey! What's up?"
"I came back to America, dude!"
" Oh! Umm! OK!"
"I want to ask about Jeanne. Is she all right?"
" You see, James. There's something about that you should know."
"I'm getting a bad feeling about this!"
" Well, I guess you can say she's happy and well."
"What do you mean?"
" She's with God, man. She's gone."
"Haha. Nice joke. I'm not kidding. Tell me where she is."
"DUDE! I'M TELLING YOU! AFTER YOU TOLD HER YOU WERE LEAVING HER, SHE STARTED GETTING DEPRESSED AND GETTING STRESSED! IT WAS HORRIBLE, MAN! WHY THE F*CK DID YOU LEAVE? SHE WOULD STILL BE ALIVE! BECAUSE OF YOU, SHE HAD TO SUICIDE! WHAT THE F*CK IS WRONG WITH YOU, YOU DUMASS JERK! I THOUGHT YOU LOVED HER! I DON'T THINK THAT'S WHAT GUYS WHO FALL IN LOVE DO TO THEIR CRUSH! SH*T! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE. REMEMBER WHEN YOU CALLED ME A JACKASS? You'd better think again.- Click! The phone fell from James's hand. He dropped to his knees in disbelief. He just couldn't believe it. He felt like everything was against him. He felt so angry with himself. He felt like ripping himself up. He wanted to follow Jeanne up to heaven.

For days and days, James didn't eat a morsel of food. He started getting so much stress.

-20 days later-

James was buried right next to Jeanne's grave. His tombstone read:
R.I.P.James Park
1980-2005

THE ONE MAN WHO LET GO OF A WOMAN AND LOST HER

Tips for Happiness

These ten tips for happiness give you little shots of happiness you can use to be happier now. A happy life consists of a long string of happy moments, and what better way to make sure you get your daily dose of happiness than to cheer up in the moment?

After all, studies show that happy people are more open to the things around them and better at finding creative solutions. So, when you need to get happier right now, try a few of these do any where, any time tips. Most only take a few seconds and can turn your whole day around.


1 Smile

There is a connection between how we feel and how we hold our body. When we feel happy, we smile automatically, without thinking about it. And, when we smile, we start to feel happy, automatically without thinking about it.


2 Dance

Dancing is a good way to express physical joy. Whether you kick up your heels, shake your hips, or waltz at a stately pace, dancing is something we do when we are happy and, like smiling, dancing can work in reverse too. Plus, anything physical, like running, swimming or playing a sport, will tend to produce natural endorphins in your body that make you feel good.


3 Sing
Singing is another thing we do naturally when we're happy that can work in reverse. This tip is a big part of the reason behind the blues; singing sad songs to feel better. So go ahead and whistle while you work.


4 Play the Glad Game

The character Pollyanna, in the Disney movie of the same name, plays the glad game whenever she is feeling sad or gloomy. What ever the situation, find something to be glad about. She asked for a doll and got crutches instead, but was glad she didn't need them. When everyone complained that they hated Sunday, Pollyanna was glad it wouldn't come around again for 6 more days.


5 Play Any Game

In his ground breaking research on flow, that sense of being in the zone, Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi found that people enjoy a challenge that is just within their reach, particularly when they get immediate feedback on how they are doing. Many things lend themselves to games, like seeing how fast you can sweep the floor, or how many homework problems you can do in 5 minutes. The key is to have a clear, feasible objective that makes you stretch and that you can measure.


6 Appreciate Something

Whether you stop to smell the roses or admire a job well done, appreciating something makes you feel good. Often it makes you smile. Acknowledging goodness and beauty feels good.

7 Thank Someone

Just feeling grateful for something, appreciating it and acknowledging your appreciation, will give you a lift, and if you share your gratitude by thanking someone you can get a double shot. Whether you write a letter or tell someone directly, thanking someone lifts your mood, and usually cheers the person you thank.


8 Tell Yourself a Story With a Happy Ending

Human beings like stories. We tend to empathize with the main characters and when they feel good at the end of the story, so do we. This can also work when you tell yourself a story about a situation you are in now. Imagining the situation with a happy ending not only gives you a mood lift, but helps wire your brain and body to make that happy ending happen.


9 Dream about what you want

This can be as simple as thinking about ice cream and as complex as imagining world peace. The more sensory detail you can put into your dream, the better. If you can taste the ice cream in your mouth, feel the cold creaminess of it, smell the chocolate or see the strawberry chunks in the soft pink cream, you will feel better. Your brain produces many of the same feel good chemicals as when you experience something pleasurable when you just imagine experiencing it.

10 Do a Good Deed

Doing good feels good. You could give a compliment, a financial contribution, share these tips for happiness, or just help someone on the street with directions. No matter how big or small, good deeds are like smiles- the more you do self-less acts of kindness, the happier you feel and the happier you feel, the more you want to pass it on by helping someone else feel good.

Often these tips for happiness are better together. For example, try smiling and playing the glad game, or singing your appreciation to someone. Any time you need a little shot of happiness, try one of these tips for happiness and be happier now.

A siLEnt LovE

From the very Begining, the girl's family objected strongly on her dating this guy. Saying that it has got to do with family background & that the girl will have to suffer for the rest of her life if she were to be with him.

Due to family's pressure, the couple quarrel very often. Though the girl love the guy deeply, but she always ask him: "How deep is your love for me?"

As the guy is not good with his words, this often cause the girl to be very upset. With that & the family's pressure, the girl often vent her anger on him. As for him, he only endure it in silence.

After a couple of years, the guy finally graduated & decided to further his studies in overseas. Before leaving, he proposed to the girl: "I'm not very good with words. But all I know is that I love you. If you allow me, I will take care of you for the rest of my life. As for your family, I'll try my best to talk them round. Will you marry me?"

The girl agreed, & with the guy's determination, the family finally gave in & agreed to let them get married. So before he leave, they got engaged.

The girl went out to the working society, whereas the guy was overseas, continuing his studies. They sent their love through emails & phone calls. Though it's hard, but both never thought of giving up.

One day, while the girl was on her way to work, she was knocked down by a car that lost control. When she woke up, she saw her parents beside her bed. She realised that she was badly injured. Seeing her mum crying, she wanted to comfort her. But she realized that all that could come out of her mouth was just a sigh. She has lost her voice......

The doctors says that the impact on her brain has caused her to lose her voice. Listening to her parents' comfort, but with nothing coming out from her, she broke down.

During the stay in hospital, besides silence cry,.....it's still just silence cry that companied her. Upon reaching home, everything seems to be the same. Except for the ringing tone of the phone. Which pierced into her heart everytime it rang. She does not wish to let the guy know. & not wanting to be a burden to him, she wrote a letter to him saying that she does not wish to wait any longer.

With that, she sent the ring back to him. In return, the guy sent millions & millions of reply, and countless of phonecalls,.. all the girl could do, besides crying, is still crying....

The parents decided to move away, hoping that she could eventually forget everything & be happy.

With a new environment, the girl learn sign language & started a new life. Telling herself everyday that she must forget the guy. One day, her friend came & told her that he's back. She asked her friend not to let him know what happened to her. Since then, there wasn't anymore news of him

A year has passed & her friend came with an envelope, containing an invitation card for the guy's wedding. The girl was shattered. When she open the letter, she saw her name in it instead.

When she was about to ask her friend what's going on, she saw the guy standing in front of her. He used sign language telling her "I've spent a year's time to learn sign language. Just to let you know that I've not forgotten our promise. Let me have the chance to be your voice. I Love You. With that, he slipped the ring back into her finger. The girl finally smiled.

InnOvatiVE dELIveRY

Had a good laugh with this Chinese delivery!

Innovative delivery method, the Chinese ways...forget about DHL, UPS or even FedEx !!! Enjoy Reading.....

A family in the Southern Province of China, were puzzled when the coffin of their dead grandmother arrived from the States. It was sent by one of the daughters. The dead body was so tightly squeezed inside the coffin, with no space left in it! When they opened the lid, they found a letter on top; which read as follows:

Dear Cousins,

I am sending Ahma body to you since it was her wish that she should be cremated in the compound of our ancestral home in Tung Shin. Sorry, I could not come along as all of my paid leaves are consumed.

You will find inside the coffin, under Ahma's body, 12 cans of Yohmeitsu, 10 packets of Swiss chocolates ! and packets of Chinatown Lap Cheong. Please divide these among all of you.

On Ahma's feet you will find a new pair of Nike Air shoes (size 10) for Ah boy. Also, there are 2 pairs of shoes for Ah Mei's and Ah Lien's sons. Hope the sizes are correct.

Ahma is wearing 6 CK T-Shirts. The large size is for Ah Bak and the others are for my nephews. Just distribute them among yourselves.

The 2 new Armani Jeans that Ahma is wearing are for the boys. The Rolex watch that Lee Ah Bai wanted is on Ahma's left wrist.

Kiasu Aunty Pei Pei , Ahma is wearing the Tiffany necklace, earrings and ring that you asked for. Please take them.

The 6 white Polo cotton socks that Ahma is wearing must be divided among my teenage cousins.

Let me know what else you need as Ah Kong is also not keeping well nowadays. I can send all required things when our Ah Kong goes back too............

ThAT SHOulD BE mE

That Should Be Me :

Everybody's laughing in my mind
Rumors spreading 'bout this other guy
Do you do what you did when you
did with me
Does he love you the way I can
Did you forget all the plans
that you made with me
'cause baby I didn't


That should be me
Holdin' your hand
That should be me
Makin' you laugh
That should be me
This is so sad
That should be me
That should be me
That should be me
Feelin' your kiss
That should be me
Buyin' you gifts
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
till you believe that
That should be me


That should be me
Yeah,
You said you needed a little time
for my mistakes
It's funny how you use that time
to have me replaced
But did you think that I wouldn't see you out at the movies
Whatcha doin' to me
you're taken' him where we used to go
Now if you're tryin' to break my heart
it's working 'cause you know that

That should be me
Holdin' your hand
That should be me
Makin' you laugh
That should be me
This is so sad
That should be me
That should be me
That should be me
Feelin' your kiss
That should be me
buyin' you gifts
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
till you believe that
That should be me

I need to know should I fight
for our love for this long
It's getting harder to shield
this pain in my heart

That should be me
Holdin' your hand
That should be me
Makin' you laugh
That should be me
This is so sad
That should be me
That should be me
That should be me
Feelin' your kiss
That should be me
Buyin' you gifts
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
Till you believe that
That should be me

That should be me
That should be me
That should be me
That should be me

(Thanks to Shayna for these lyrics)
Everybody's laughing in my mind
Rumors spreading 'bout this other guy
Do you do what you did when you
did with me
Does he love you the way I can
Did you forget all the plans
that you made with me
'cause baby I didn't


That should be me
Holdin' your hand
That should be me
Makin' you laugh
That should be me
This is so sad
That should be me
That should be me
That should be me
Feelin' your kiss
That should be me
Buyin' you gifts
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
till you believe that
That should be me


That should be me
Yeah,
You said you needed a little time
for my mistakes
It's funny how you use that time
to have me replaced
But did you think that I wouldn't see you out at the movies
Whatcha doin' to me
you're taken' him where we used to go
Now if you're tryin' to break my heart
it's working 'cause you know that

That should be me
Holdin' your hand
That should be me
Makin' you laugh
That should be me
This is so sad
That should be me
That should be me
That should be me
Feelin' your kiss
That should be me
buyin' you gifts
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
till you believe that
That should be me

I need to know should I fight
for our love for this long
It's getting harder to shield
this pain in my heart

That should be me
Holdin' your hand
That should be me
Makin' you laugh
That should be me
This is so sad
That should be me
That should be me
That should be me
Feelin' your kiss
That should be me
Buyin' you gifts
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
Till you believe that
That should be me

That should be me
That should be me
That should be me
That should be me

By JB~

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dari longkang ku beralih ke tempat setinggi langit ke tujuh
Agar dapat mengucup sinar keinsafan
pintu taubat masih terbuka
terbuka luas kepada insan bergelar hamba
Lalu meniti jambatan kejayaan
sejurus kebahagiaan dalam genggaman
Cahaya yang wujud semakin pudar
Di saat aku berdiri di puncak dunia
Ibu dan Ayah pergi menghadap Yang Esa

Sebak menyelubungiku
Hampir terjerumus ke lembah dusta
terumbang-ambing bersendirian
Mujur nasihat mereka terus berkuatkuasa
kasih sayang pasangan ini mekar mewangi
Semerah-merah darah mengalir
Merah lagi CINTAku pada insan
bergelar ibu dan ayah

Dikarang oleh-Nur Syazwanie Fatin Hanizan
HAK CIPTA TERPELIHARA 2010

LAwAK peCah PANggUNG

Cerita ni aku dapat kat email kisah Cikgu dan Murid yang Lucu.

Kelas yang tadi bercempera tiada guru, kini menjadi senyap sunyi. Ini adalah kerana guru yang paling digeruni telah masuk ke dalam kelas.Wajahnya garang seperti Jin yang tidak ada Shamsudin. Kalau hendak tahu ikutilah pelajaran cikgu ini. Nama cikgu ialah..

Murid-murid: Selamat pagi, cikgu.

Cikgu: (Menengking) Mengapa selamat pagi sahaja? Petang dan malam
awak doakan saya tak selamat?

Murid-murid: Selamat pagi,petang dan malam cikgu!

Cikgu: Panjang sangat! Tak pernah dibuat oleh orang! Kata selamat
sejahtera! Senang dan penuh bermakna. Lagipun ucapan ini meliputi
semua masa dan keadaan.

Murid-murid: Selamat sejahtera cikgu!

Cikgu: Sama-sama, duduk! Dengar sini baik-baik . Hari ini cikgu nak
uji kamu semua tentang perkataan berlawan. Bila cikgu sebutkan
perkataannya, kamu semua mesti menjawab dengan cepat, lawan bagi
perkataan-perkataan itu, faham?

Murid-murid: Faham, cikgu!

Cikgu: Saya tak mahu ada apa-apa gangguan.

Murid-murid: (senyap)

Cikgu: Pandai!

Murid-murid: Bodoh!

Cikgu: Tinggi!

Murid-murid: Rendah!

Cikgu: Jauh!

Murid-murid: Dekat!

Cikgu: Berjaya!

Murid-murid: Usno!

Cikgu: Salah!

Murid-murid: Betul!

Cikgu: Bodoh!

Murid-murid: Pandai!

Cikgu: Bukan!

Murid-murid: Ya!

Cikgu: Oh Tuhan!

Murid-murid: Oh Hamba!

Cikgu: Dengar ini!

Murid-murid: Dengar itu!

Cikgu: Diam!

Murid-murid: Bising!

Cikgu: Itu bukan pertanyaan, bodoh!

Murid-murid: Ini ialah jawapan, pandai!

Cikgu: Mati aku!

Murid-murid: Hidup kami!

Cikgu: Rotan baru tau!

Murid-murid: Akar lama tak tau!

Cikgu: Malas aku ajar kamu!

Murid-murid: Rajin kami belajar cikgu!

Cikgu: Kamu gila!

Murid-murid: Kami siuman!

Cikgu: Cukup! Cukup!

Murid-murid: Kurang! Kurang!

Cikgu: Sudah! Sudah!

Murid-murid: Belum! Belum!

Cikgu: Mengapa kamu semua bodoh sangat?

Murid-murid: Sebab saya seorang pandai!

Cikgu: Oh! Melawan!

Murid-murid: Oh! Mengalah!

Cikgu: Kurang ajar!

Murid-murid: Cukup ajar!

Cikgu: Habis aku!

Murid-murid: Kekal kami!

Cikgu: O.K. Pelajaran sudah habis!

Murid-murid: K.O. Pelajaran belum bermula!

Cikgu: Sudah, bodoh!

Murid-murid: Belum, pandai!

Cikgu: Berdiri!

Murid-murid: Duduk!

Cikgu: Saya kata USNO salah!

Murid-murid: Kami dengar BERJAYA betul!

Cikgu: Bangang kamu ni!

Murid-murid: Cerdik kami tu!

Cikgu: Rosak!

Murid-murid: Baik!

Cikgu: Kamu semua ditahan tengah hari ini!

Murid-murid: Dilepaskan tengah malam itu!

Cikgu: (Senyap dan mengambil buku-bukunya keluar.) Sebentar kemudian,
loceng pun berdering.Murid-murid merasa lega kerana guru yang paling
ditakuti oleh mereka telah keluar. Walau bagaimanapun, mereka merasa
bangga kerana telah dapat menjawab kesemua soalan cikgu tadi, tetapi
esok masih ada. Cikgu itu pasti akan datang lagi.

Moral Of the story : Biar Lawak, Lucu, Kelakar, Jenaka dan ada sense of humor tapi jangan jadi Lawyer Buruk..Setuju tak?

SING,SINGLE,SINGLET

klu tgk 3 words ni..kte taw mmg jauh sgt mksod satu2 tu kan..sume dh PANDAI2 kan?? so xpyh laa ak nk bg maksud mnde2 alah tu.karang kne plak selak kamus dewan bahase dan pustaka.sbnrnye..ak nk cte psl word yg duk tgh tu jee.yg laen tu nk tumpang glame je..
td aku dok tgk2 mcm2 jenis org wat blog..mcm2 cte yg dorg share.xkre personal ke x..dh mcm diary seharian plak ak tgk.tp ak xleh nk wat camtu..sbb idop ak ni xmenarik utk diceritekan.sme je mcm org laen.ak isaw klu ak cte rmai plak yg mati kebosanan.so,disebabkan niat ak yg murni,xnk tgk kadar kematian ngre mngkt,ak xkan cte psl idop ak sgt.okay,okay..smbung blk ape ak nk share td.yg ak perasan skali klu blog2 cewek,byk laa cte psl cowoknyee.i lap u,u lap me dan seangkatan dengannye laa..awwwwwww,so sweet.sejujurnye,ak xprnh terpk nk wat cmtu.sbb nye??I AM SINGLE.hahahaha senang cte,pompuan mcm ak ni nk pupus gk laa.sbb kengkwn ak pon rmai yg dh cpai status 'in a relationship'.tp stkt ni alhamdulillah,ak still xterjebak dlm hubungan sebegitu yee hadirin dan hadirat sekalian.dah kawan laki pon berape ketul je,ada hati nak COUPLE!haha
Tp ak dgn pendirian ak laa.xnk terlibat ngn permainan emosi.ececeyhh.mst ade yg kta 'eleh,ayat coverline je minah ni'.ye laaa,ak kta ak xnk couple.tp tipulaa klu ak kta xde ske sespe kan.dr sekolah rendah,sekolah menengah sampai laa ke IPTA..mst ade jee yg berkenan en.just ak x pernah laa amek serious mnde2 mcm ni.ak slalu ingt mak ak pesan.perjalanan idop ak jauh lg.blaja laa dlu,kmpul duit bebyk.biar berjaya dulu.bru laa pk psl mnde2 nih.but ak xpernah laa nk ngate ke hape kt org yg couple.bg ak dorg bley wat ape yg dorg nk wat.masing2 ade life sndri.sume pon taw bezakn dose ngn phla kan.jnji pndai2 laa jge dri sendiri.ak xnk laa jd mcm kwn ak sorg ni.statement dye bley dikatekan thp xde hati perut jantung dan ginjal laa.

"AKU xhormat dgn org yg couple2 ni.xkre laa dye pndai ke x.ak ttp xske"

oi cik kak.spe suh ko ske dorg..lek luuu.klu dibuatnyee ko couple satu ari nnt,bru laa ko taw tnggi rndh lngit bumi..adoi.kte semua manusie bese kan.kte xlyk nk menilai org tu baik ke,jahat kee.kte amek inisiatif sndri r..pndai2 laa bezekan betul ngn salah.TUHAN je yg layak meletakkan kedudukan hambaNYA kat mne.
And utk org2 SINGLE mcm ak,xpayah nk gelabah ayam sgt laa.terkocoh2 nk cri gf ke bf.enjoy je life kte skang.adenye family kte ngn parents n adik akk yg sengal mengal pon dh ckup kan.ble dh smpai mse kte,bru laa kte pk kot laen plak.kpd bebdk yg dh jumpe teman sehidup dan xmati-mati..ak doakan korg bhgie dunie akhirat.jge r batasan2 antre laki ngn pompuan..waaa,terase mcm ustazah yg BERWIBAWA plak.HAAHAAH
akhir kate,klu ak dh xbrape nk SINGLE,ak nk kecoh satu dunie.ahahaha haa,kt fb,kt twitter,blog,formspring sume..ak akan cte smpai dh xtercte..tp skarang ak nk mengisytiharkan bhwsenye sye BERBANGGA menjadi SINGLE tanpa KEMUSYKILAN ataupun RAGU-RAGU

P/S: mutiara kata pada abad ke 2o ini ialah

The heart of a fool is in his mouth, but the mouth of a wise man is in his heart.(B FRANKLIN)

MASaLAh NEGARA VS MASALAH DuNIA

Sebelum ak nk cte pape..TAJUK kt atas mmg xde kne mengene langsung dgn ape ak nk cte ni.nk wat camane,ILHAM xde.
So,terus kpd titik (str8 to the point)..ak kongsi problem yg ak rse common sgt dlm kalangan remaje skang.xkre awek ke awok..same aje.mmg ikut kajian,mslh ni berlaku lebih pd perempuan laa kan..sbb laki pndai cover sket r.nway,mslh yg ak duk membebel ni psl confident level dan keturunannye.
CONFIDENT LEVEL= 0
LOVE = 0
TRUST = 0
RESPECT = 0
INTELLEGENCE = 80 above
Mesti klu kte tgk percentage kt atas ni (yg merupekan kajian ak sndri HAHA),kte rse pelik sbb bdknyee bkn lembap ke ape en..dh mcm kesian sgt idop mcm tu.tp tu lah kenyataannye..sbb ak pon termsok dlm golongan2 yg tersesat jauh ni.Realitinyee..mmg cmtu.ble kt berfb,twitter,formspring sume..gaye mcm cool aje.tp TUHAN je yg taw klu muka ke muka ataupun org putih kta face to facee..mmg tunduk malu thp nk rukuk' jee..
Ak xtaw laa klu org len..tp kengkdg prasaan tuu mmg ade.kte rse xykin ble dpn org rmai.sbb ape???ade byk sbb sbnrnyee..antaranye sbb xpercye pd dri sndri..xsyg dan xhormat dgn bakat yg kte ade.Seriously klu ak..ak xykin pd dri sndri sbb fizikal ak..(okay,ni bukan BERSAMAMU nk sdey2 ke ape tp ni cte sbnr)bkn sbb xbersyukur ke ape.mgkn sbb size bdn yg xbrape nk kecik ataupun ayat bestnyee 'diam diam WANIE berisi'..sgle mcm nasihat yg prnh ak dgr..slalu dorg kta,alaaa waniee..rilex je r.dh ko belasah je.HELOOOOOOOOOO..ckp sng laa wei..hahah mslhnyee ak mmg xleh nk HUHA HUHA sgt klu dpn2 org rmai or org ak bru knl.
Nasib ak baik sket laa.sbb ak dikelilingi dgn org2 yg terpelajar lg terdidik mnybbkn ak xde laa rse down sgt.Nak kta ak xcukup ksih syg...dh melimpah2 dh..klu xckup mkn tu tpu laa..sbb tu lah pnca mslh terBESAQ.haha adoi.ak rse r..ak kengkdg pk sgt ape pndgn org kt ak.dye bkn kes sje nk cri simpati tp kes xde kerje nk dibuat kot.entahlahh.selame ak idop ni..ak agk jelous gak ngn bebdk ngn nmpk ykin,independent,berkepimpinan..sbb ak terpk gk,bley laaa ak nk jd mcm spesis2 LUARBIASA a.k.a. ALIEN bg ak..
Nway,bebdk skrg rmai kot yg pndai.bersepah lg berterabur.tp yg golongan2 yg ALIEN ni yg berhrge n diperlukan dlm msyrkt(alototototttt,ak ngaku r ak xlayak sobs3.)Tapi kengkadang ak bermuhasabah diri gak r.ak xde laa jahil sgt kan..ak terpk..klu ak sdey sgt psl ak size besar ke ape..npe ak xpenah sedih klu ak terlpe Allah ble dh sng..mgkn klu ak cun sket dri skarang *riak2*,xkan ade laa WANIE skarang kan.ntahlaahh.tp ak ykin je,satu hari nanti ak akan berubah.tp tolonglaa phm.ak pon xtaw ble ak bley berubah.sye ni pemalu orgnyee.ITU HAKIKAT YE.ble dgn kengkwn ak yg sekple je ak bley masuk.klu x alamatnye jd perempuan melayu terawal dan terakhir laa ak kt situ.Cecmne pon itulah ak kan.xkan ak nk menggelebah xtntu psl.MALU ITU SEBAHAGIAN DARI IMAN.tp malu pun ade tmptnye gk.aiseh!
So korg yg ade kt muke bumi ni,jgnlh jd cm ak..cbe cri identiti diri korg sndri.sbb ak pon nk try gk r en..mne lah taw ak ley brubah..doa2 kanlah kte semua sentiasa berada di bawah berkat dan redha NYA.aminn.

CERITE di atas xde kne mengene dgn yg idop ataupun yg sudah mati.

P/S:mutiara kata pada zaman berteknologi tinggi ialah
Knowing others is intelligence; knowing yourself is true wisdom.
(Lao Tse)

SENGAL BANGET

Aku terbce mnde alah ni td..lwk glee..just wanna share with u guys.
Suatu pagi yang indah kat sebuah sekolah rendah, seorang guru yang
begitu dedikasi mengajar anak2 muridnya tentang betapa bahayanya
minuman keras kepada mereka. Sebelum memulakan mata pelajarannya pada hari
itu dia telah mengambil 2 ekor cacing yang hidup, sebagai sampel kehidupan
dan dua gelas minuman yang masing2 berisi dengan air mineral dan arak..

“Cuba perhatikan murid2.. lihat bagaimana saya akan memasukkan cacing ini
kedalam gelas, perhatikan betul2. Cacing yang sebelah kanan saya, akan saya
masukkan ke dalam air mineral manakala cacing yang sebelah kiri saya akan
masukkan ke dalam arak. Perhatikan betul2.”

Semua mata tertumpu pada kedua2 ekor cacing itu.

Seperti dijangkakan, cacing yang berada dalam gelas yang berisi air mineral
itu berenang2 di dasar gelas, manakala cacing yang berada di dalam arak
menggeletek lalu mati. Si cikgu tersenyum lebar, apabila melihat anak2
muridnya memberikan sepenuh tumpuan pada ujikajinya.

“Baiklah murid2, apa yang kamu dapat belajar dari ujikaji yang cikgu
tunjukkan sebentar tadi??”

Dengan penuh yakin anak2 muridnya menjawab,

UNTUK MENGELAKKAN KECACINGAN...MINUMLAH ARAK…

Pengajaran : Cakap biar terang, bak kata-kata dalam filem P Ramlee……….

TITBITS

okay2.this is my first time blogging for real.yeah,it takes a lot of effort but yahooo!my blog is officially done.HAHA after about 4 hours of hardworking (well,you see..im a newbies.so do support me pl =p),i finally publishing my number one post.As i have a lot of time *oh,i forgot to mention that i had finished my studies in uitm puncak alam and now having my sweet holidays*,i will share all kind of stuff that i found interesting.
WAAAHH..berjaye buat satu perenggan dalam bahasa inggeris.BAHAHAA tu laaa pentingnye english education bak kata si usop wilchaa.WELL3..okay,okay.
sebenarnye credit tu ziema dan afini idrus selaku perempuan2 yg bergune pd abad terkini sbb tolong aku buat blog ni..Jasa mu akan ku kenang smpai beble..
Sejak duk umah ni..RINDU jugak kat bebdk palam.serious korg sporting gle.*bajet knl sgt je sume kan*..bt still,hidup kat palam xtension lngsong.dengan bebdk F4 yg sempoi..kengkwn baik ak..zu,fini,shu..rumate ak yg SENGAL LG NGEK,ateq..mmg xkn jmpe dh homosapien jenis korg ni.nway,ak syg korg.WAAHHH..romantik x ak..HAHAHAH
Pling pntg,ak nk kta thanks kt korg sbb byk bg ilmu kt ak.TWEETY,ZIEMA ntah sespe lg..xingt nme tp jgn isaw mke korg akan melekat kt hati ak.ececeyhhh...sebab bebru ni dh dpt result yg org katee bley r diterima akal..ak nk ucapkan terima kasih kat lecturer2 yg byk bg ilmu..mslhnye ak je yg xberape nk byk serap..tp yg pling ak xkan lupe mr. ape yeee.HAHA korg pephm je laaa.scandal TEGAR tu.hahahah
K,dah dah.jangan melalut sgt.SEKALI lg kat bebdk F4 and minah2 kt R2204..miss u all da veryyy muahxx..

P/S:mutiara kata pd zaman millenium ini ialah....


Always laugh when you can; It is cheap medicine. (Byron)

till then.TATA TITI TUTUUUU